well, not exactly alone. i got a wonderful boyfriend and nice friends.
1. but i miss my family! so much! the first 19 years of life i spent with them at home. i used to depend on them in almost eveything. when i came here august 2004, i was like.... huaaaaaaaaaaaaaa what a terrible homesick-days in first week!

2. then, i started to look at the world around me.
new school, new people, new home, new country, new clean fresh air of holland

3. i began to like my new life.
i have a great piano teacher. now after 3 years i adore him more and more. 
i have a best friend... my dear Finnish friend Heli-Sisko Kristiina Kantola. she's in spain now and still the best-est  i got so far...
i met my boyfriend. luv luv

4. trouble never stops...
i got robbed in my second year (don't want to be racist, but i kinda hate all the problems made by these imigrant people in this city. always them!)
i didn't get my residence permit for one year (made me had to cancel a holiday to paris. !!!)
i had to move house 3 times because of the landlord. God, i love to do all the decoration and stuff,but it was terribly tiring and took long time....
i ran out of money. Already a few times i saw a minus number in my account.

5. never give up! it's so true..
now, hopefully i can finish this school year without asking money from my parents. I got a job as a pianist in a high school. It's enjoyable, good for experience, nice people, and good money as well.

This is just a general things about what i've done these 3 years. i'm not always satisfied, but i'm happy.